This is quite a different time in history. We are all having to slow down, stay home and decide how we are going to react to everything. I have not been fearful during this time because I know where I put my trust, but I can admit that anxiety has been attempting to get me. I am not used to not being busy and always being on the go. I am used to finding places to go to fill my time. Now, I am only going out one evening a week. No, I don’t have the virus, but I have been sick on and off over the last few weeks so I have been sticking close to home. Earlier today, a major moment of anxiety hit me and I felt like I was going to jump out of my skin. I got up from the table and stepped onto my deck and I just stopped. I stared out into the backyards that all come together on my allotment and took a deep breath. I realized something. I realized that I can choose how to respond to this situation. I could run around like freakin chicken little and scream about the sky falling, or I could look at it in another way. I could see it as a shift.
My church’s word for the year is shift. I have helped launch a boom entitled Shift. God gave me the words, Renewal, Peace and Selah for this year. I am going through this amazing class about healing from my past. I am learning how to follow the call on my life to write and speak about the freedom He has given me. These are the things I need to focus on. My focus needs to be on what is right in front of me. I need to look up at Him instead of all around for the answers. Yes, being educated and taking the situation serious is crucial, but even more than that, growing more focused on God and what He is teaching me, and each of us, is paramount.
He wanted me to take this year to focus on Him, healing, writing and community. Now that the initial shock of this situation has hit and gone, it is time to stop, shift my gaze, and use the gifts that He has given me, including time to rest and renew.